As much as I’d love to just jump right into my “rant of the day”, I feel like I should offer a little background as to what got me to where I am today…

• Girl mets guy and they become friends
• Fastforward 16 years later, girl breaks up with previous guy and reconnects with guy friend after 5-6 years of no contact to have a catch-up dinner
• 2 days later, girl and guy fall in love and 3 weeks later, girl is pregnant

Are we all caught up now?    Great.  As the entries get published, more will be revealed to tell the story of “in between the lines”.

So… here I am.  Almost 13 weeks pregnant with my first child at 33 and him at 39.   My how times have changed and people tend to give birth at an older age.   For me, though, getting pregnant was something I thought could/ would never happen.  You see, when I was in my early 20’s I had an abnormal pap which then triggered a cancer scare.  Since then, I have been regularly screened to ensure there were no more mutated cells in my cervix.

I’ve been suffering with issues in my uterus ever since.  This is probably unrelated to the pap, but nonetheless, I had annual trips to the ER due to the fibrosis and cysts.  Fun times.

I was married once upon and time and my ex-husband (it’s been almost 3 years since the divorce) and I tried for years to conceive, but it was so difficult.  I knew it would be a challenge, but we opted to try and try again.. year after year.   Well, it’s been 6+ years since we started trying and I was never able to see that + sign on a pregnancy test.   How I was able to become pregnant now is something is short of a miracle.   I’m a believer of fate (only in the last few years, though) and I firmly believe things are meant to be when they are meant to be.  Let’s just say thank god I didn’t have anyone else’s demon seed (stories to follow).

This year, I was anticipating my annual trip to the ER- which seems to always happen in the September/ October time frame (weird) and as I sat wondering when I would need to go and whom I could call upon to take me, the darnedest thing happened… I ended up getting pregnant instead.

How I ended up getting pregnant was another miracle.   It was right before my menstrual cycle (like 3 days prior and I still ended up bleeding that month) and kids, the pull out method does not work.  Pre-cum is a real thing and it can really get you pregnant.   Listen to what I tell you.  I’m walking/ growing proof.  lol

This is now my life… sitting on my comfy couch with the man I’m meant to be with, watching football next to me.  I’ve always envisioned what my blog would sound like and I can tell you from the experiences I’ve gone through in the first 3 months, pregnancy is NOT all glows, cute bumps and happy hormones.  Oh no.  There is a dark unglamorous side to this whole thing that NO ONE tells you about.   You can guarantee I’m going to give it to you real.  I’m not going to sugar coat anything, because really, not every thing I experienced with pleasant.